somewhere, somehow, somewhen

Letting Go, Letting God

Thanksgiving! Now that all the leftover turkey has been put on ice for the turkey ala king, turkey and noodles, turkey pie, and flaming turkey drumsticks one can think about what there is to be actually be thankful for.

Turkey day this year with our family brought about huge changes. A couple months ago my husband decided to (according to him) 'NOT' have a MIDLIFE CRISIS -- even though he grew his hair long, bought two new guitars, hooked up with his ol' rock and roll buddie, and had (is having) an affair because as he said he didn't know how to love.

Well the day after Thanksgiving I heard a pounding on the door, and guess what? The Mail-man had an extra-special delivery just for me.. Divorce papers. Tumtetum..

I never ever never ever thought I'd see the day when... but hey one never knows what is just around the block and up ones street!
Anyway back to tissue city.

Who knows what the next curve in the road will bring? Will I get a lawyer to counter his lawyer? I doubt it, as I don't want to hurt anyone at anytime if at all possible. What am I going to ask for in the divorce? What are material things after all? Just material things, and things don't matter. Which means I have a big ol red target printed on my shirt but hey that's ok go ahead have some target practice, because I know what love is.
and.. it.. just.. doesn't.. matter...because

I'm letting go and letting God.. Nothing, and I mean NOTHING is worth giving up God. God is love.

One doesn't know what love is? Just train ones heart on what there IS to love, and that would be anything and everything and everyone. Be thankful for family and friends, appreciate each other, and be thankful for everything that comes ones way.

Do I forgive Mr. Midlife Crisis? You bet I do, and I still wish him the best. Someday someway I have a hunch that this will all seem just like some kind of pre-school mudthrowing wrestle.

The tough roads are where one gets to know God the best. He's always ALWAYS there, and hey if one doesn't know it then just check out his Footprints in the sand.

posted by Guinorion @ 3:01 PM